I didn't know that exams could get people so worked up that they'll expose their screwed up sides so easily. I don't think she must have screwed up the exam. For all I know it maybe because she might not be getting the highest marks. Geez! What a nerdy behavior! I absolutely hate it when she just speaks for the sake of replying. I'm not that desperate, Saifi. I prefer genuine talks rather than forced ones. And bloody hell, get your brain to realise I really love you. I see some eventuality dawning upon soon. Time to end this ache. It's about time you and I get at a balanced point so that I can fucking live MY life. I've been deprived of doing this by you, not with your conscience though. I'm going to get back to my old self- The one I have missed for a long time now.

And off again! My mood sings are violent. Too much for anyone's liking. Currently following a "Fuck it" attitude. Not giving a damn about anything and anyone. Yes. Saifi is off my mind for the time being. It's been almost 40 hours since I text-ed her. That's a considerable amount of time of staying away at this point of my relationship with her. I miss her. But the thing is I want her to miss me. That would be like a win-win situation for me. I'm just so done with expecting things. Suhita and Rakshita say- It's high time you let her know and bring an end to the misery you are giving to yourself. Perhaps right. But somewhere on the back of my mind, I fear the ending. But how bad can it be,right? I've decided to put an end to this after the exams. Yes. And ending to this painful days perhaps. Or it may get worse...

Her thoughts are consuming most brain cells than anything else I think about. Why am I addicted? I have no clue. Because if I was aware of the reason,I could have done something to prevent this from happening."Saifi" is what I call her. Her  first name is too mainstream to be said by me. I'm not any special one from her point of view but then I'm aiming at being one. This girl is a shrewd creature. Unlikely,yet so. She cleverly does things while not making people realize what she's upto. Before I say more about her,here's the thing- I fell for her. Head over heels. Damn!

Simply another day!
Exams start day after tomorrow and trying to burn the fire of seriousness into me,as always,is proving to be futile. Look here. I started blogging today. Whatsapp group is unusually quite today. Guys are probably gearing up for the exams as well. But wait now. The vibrations have started and off they go with another round of jamming conversation. I haven't gone online for more than 6 hours now. Trying to change? Possibly. I mean, C'mon! I need to play smart now.